Everyone is a little gay

Hello my lovelies!

I recently discovered that September is Bi Visibility Month. I find it a bit odd because doesn’t everyone know we already celebrated half of June. ;) half straight, half gay, only fair to get half the month. Still always unsure of how we all fit in.

I have always thought that I was just like everyone else. Just a little gay. I never put much thought into until recently. I was shocked to find out that not everyone thinks they’re a little gay.

Dating men was just simple and what “we were suppose to do.” I’m attracted to men as well so it was pretty easy to go along with. I would occasionally develop a girl crush, which I also thought everyone did because girls are pretty. Who wouldn’t have a crush?

I never thought deeply about my own sexuality until the past few years. I started my sobriety with the idea of living my most authentic life. I realized quickly that I had to learn to love myself. I needed to be vulnerable and honest. Part of that was taking back my sexuality. No longer putting limits on who or how I should date. I had to learn about my own worth. I worked on self validation and slowly deconstructed the idea that my worth is only as much as other people’s approval deemed it to be. I learned that my time and my heart is valuable.

I am still a work in progress. I never know how to respond when people ask me what I am looking for. I guess I’m looking for connection. It doesn’t matter to me if it’s with a woman or a man. I want someone that will accept my love and return it kindly. Someone that will make me laugh and feel moments of absolute joy. Until then, I’ll flirt with the boys and the girls. Kiss a few too along the way 💋. Probably laugh at the questions I get, but I’ll try to answer them honestly. We’re all just trying to figure life out as we go.